Thursday, July 16, 2009

I have one week left, unless the Doctor makes me stay out longer and all the test come back normal. These six weeks have flown by. Finally the fifth week I'm feeling so much better. I went with my sister and her girls and took a few senior pictures. It was fun but tiring. They are so beautiful.
My sister helped me get my craft room in order. Thank God for her.. She is organized and that is were I'm lacking.. Now I can go in and create and enjoy myself. Why is it when everything is in order you wake up feeling so much better?
I've been praying for God's direction for my life. For a While... But I haven't been a stressing like I was at one time. I'm not going to get caught back up in the craziness of life like before my surgery. So busy you could hardly breathe. Doing for others. I'm going to continue to do for others but not so much to putting my family on back burner. I know under God's direction everything will work out. Lord help me to totally trust you and for me not to over ride what you want and me do what Michelle wants. I think I want. Because most of the time I think I want to do this or that and when I do it, I realize I don't. but you never know until you try. Right?
We had Stevie's grandfathers 90th birthday party last nite at his church. It was nice for his church to throw such a party with all the good home cooking food, All my..
I tried on several outfits I can not wear them. I have gained so much weight. I need to drop a few pounds. I've been watching what I eat, I just haven't been able to do exercise yet. I'm pretty sure the Dr. will release me to do some, so I'm hoping with that I can lose a little weight just to fit back into my clothes.
Lord, Help us through this day. help me to stay focused on you and what your will for my life is. In Jesus Name AMEN..

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

A Good Day

It was a good day. I started taking my vitamins yesturday, and sort of kind of watching my eating habits. Dede came and helped me clean my house yesturday, I finished some dresses I had orders for. I woke up this morning feeling so refreshed. Waking up to a clean house makes me feel so good. Knowing that why don't I do it... Now, if I can conquer my craft room.. That will be a BIG accomplishment.. And a wonderful one. I would want to go in there and work.. I went and took pictures of Dede twins today they are seniors now, it was fun tiring, but fun. They don't like to get there pictures made so it was kind of challenging. But all in all we had a good but busy day. Now to edit all the 740 pictures I done.. I pray tomorrow will be even a better day.

Monday, July 13, 2009

Getting my life back to normal

I'm feeling better as each day goes by. Thank God. I 'm trying not to worry about the test I have to have on the 22nd. I'm trying not to have caffine, it is so hard not having my cup of coffee first thing in the morning. I'm hoping this will make that I want have to have any test come the 22nd. Lord, Help me.

I want to get my house back to normal. Get it really clean, cabients organized, menus planned, clothes washed and put away, floors mopped and bathrooms cleaned. My sister wanted to come and help so we can switch it out for me doing her hair. I told her to come on when she gets ready. So I'm waiting paitently.

I have to complete 8 dresses today and get them shipped out. I felt like that was what I was supose to do make these little dresses. But they have become a nuisance. As I started last Firday to make them, I was so overwhelmed with the thought of having to go back t work in a couple of weeks and not getting anything done that I wanted to do in this time of healing, that I go kept messing up with the sewing. I had to rip out and resew things. And the lady that does my monograming said she could do it first thing Friday morning, well when I called that evening about 5 she said she didn't have time to get to it and it will be first thing Monday morning. UGGHH. That stressed me out. I wanted to do something that didn't stress me out. And this has become a problem for me. I thought the Lord was leading me to do this. But maybe it was God allowing me to do this to be taught a lesson. A nd to put my life at prespective.

My family is my prioity. Doing for them. I have tend to lost sight of that a few times. Getting so busy and putting them on the back burner. A saying that I kept remembering, "If the devil can't get you to do something wrong, he will make you busy" well that is so true. Before I even realize it I am doing something, hair, ministry, doing for others, crafting, on the web, tkaing picutures. Which I have to do this week. Not doing what I need and my hearts desire right here at home. Taking care of it and the people that are in it. Preparing a delious healthy meal for my hard working husband and Mandy.

But last nite as I was clicking through the channels on TV i stopped and listened to TD Jakes, about my children, inviting them over and putting the word in them not really preaching to them but loving them quoting scripture. My children are good kids, but they have strayed away. I have to try to reach them.

Lord, help me to prepare a meal and invite them over and share your love. And Lord, help me with our money. To have a savings, to payoff bills early. To get my home duties in order. That is my prayer today. You gave me this home, help me to take care of it and help me to have the spirit of hospitily Lord, thank you for putting this desire in me. In Jesus Name Amen.

Sunday, July 12, 2009

Lord, Help me today to study your word at least fifteen minutes a day searching for your plan for my life. I only have two weeks left of my disablitiy and I really desire getting to know my father more than ever. I spend time with Him about everyday. But I want to make sure it is everyday. Help me to clean my house, throw away stuff, schedule my time, think on Stevie doing for him. Being the mother I need to be. My hearts desire..


I am so tired... We had a blas at church with the water slide. We've got our money's worth out of it. I seemed to have forgotton to take my medicine last nite and I can tell it today. It maybe too, I'm trying to quit drinking coffee and caffine until I go back to dr. That is hard. I didn't think it would be, but it is. I am so ready to getting back to normal. With life, even though somethings I'm changing, but I'm ready to feel better. Trying to change eating habits and start a simple exercise program. Letting go of things that stresses me out. I don't know why I am like this I get so busy doing things and get sooooo caught up in those things that I sleep and eat that, even putting off reading the word of God. Lord, help me to contine to seek you first and foremost then everything else will fall into place.

I love lifting and encouraging people. Lord, help me to do more of that In Jesus name AMEN..